5dp5dt: Wanna See My Ghost Line?

Well, I tested this morning...


...I tested yesterday morning too (at 4dp5dt) just to make sure the trigger shot was out of my system...which it was. 


For what purpose would one have a trigger shot during an FET?, you ask? My clinic says the hormonal environment should mimic an ovulatory cycle as much as possible.


I woke up around 5 am today and knew I wouldn't be able to get back to sleep without testing...so I did.  I promise there is the faintest, slightest, hint of a bordering-on-imaginary line.  Here is the picture Forest took, holding it up to the light: 

It's the + sign = BFP kind

Hmmmmmm....you can't see it? Even if you tilt your head? Even if you look at your screen at an angle? Well you'll just have to use your imagination, then!!!


Here it is in black & white with the color boosted by 9 times (that seems mutually exclusive, doesn't it? Well NOTHING is too hard for my MacBrook Pro):

How about now? You see it now, right? Right?


Okay, so I took this one at 5:00 pm. Can you see this one?

It's there...fo' sho - a bit more noticeable in person.  I can see it. It's my favorite one so far. :)


My first beta is tomorrow, but they don't typically provide the results of that one unless you ask, specifically, and it's not a STAT order, so they claim they don't get the results until the following day (which I happen to know is not true, depending on the time of day one has one's blood drawn, but I digress).  The second beta is Wednesday and they call with the results of that one.


Of course I will test tomorrow morning too, at which time I'm hoping to see a bit more line and a bit less ghost.  


I am still very optimistic - I figure negative thoughts don't do ANY good and, at least in my case, negative thoughts don't help prepare me for disappointment, should some be looming in my future. So it's positive thoughts only up in here!!!!


I am also very excited that I got to meet a friend from the Internets last night!  My friend Jen from the What to Expect When You're Expecting (WTE) board we used to post on came to vacation in St. Louis and she wanted to meet me!!!!!!!! We went to the Royale Dumpe - a 16th Century Dinner Theatre.  A fun time was had by all :)

So, uh, let me know, Jen, if you don't want me to post your picture on the Internet, and I'll take it down!!! :) But isn't she cute!?!??!? She wonderful and has such a sweet spirit. I am honored that she wanted to meet me. 


I feel very blessed to have "met" such wonderful ladies, like Jen, over these troubling years.  You are definitely infertility's silver lining!!! Love you all, MUAH!