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Monday, January 19, 2009

Decisions, decisions

So - I bet you all thought I wasn't doing this whole blogging, keeping up with my cyber-friends, letting people know I'm still alive thing, huh? 

I guess I just haven't had much to say. I was, seriously, like 94.7% ready to throw in the towel: to be content with my perfect husband and beautiful daughter and just wait for grandkids. Or, hopefully, step-grandkids (Katie is, after all, only 14). But now I'm thinking I might get back on the old horse. I started my period 38 days ago, but I didn't call the IVF Hut like they told me to. I tested on Saturday because I was a whole week late. Doesn't that mean I'm pregnant? HAH! It might mean a girl with normally functioning ovaries is pregnant but - if anything - I think it's been established that my ovaries are straight up f'd up. 

So now I figure I'm going to have to call some sort of doctor person to get some progesterone just so I can have my period. I don't just want to leave my uterus to its own devices because it gets sad and lonely for a baby to grow and starts growing polyps instead. One thing I've decided is that I'm definitely done with George. I feel my options at this point are:
  1. Call the IVF Hut and give it another go (what do I have to lose? My flexible spending account is just sitting there with $2K in it - what else am I going to spend it on? I don't need that many contact lenses)
  2. Call a doctor my sister recommended (she is a physician recruiter for a nearby hospital). She got a PhD in molecular biology before getting her MD. I made my sister send me her CV to prove it. I am tired of doctors who insult my intelligence and say BS things. I want a genius doctor who is patient-focused and compassionate. That's not too much to ask, right?
  3. Call George's brother - the other IVF show in town. Actually, there's a third IVF show in town - the guy who did Forest's vasectomy reversal - but he doesn't like what the insurance companies will pay him so he makes you pay up front and get reimbursed yourself afterwards (and you have to pay the non-insurance-discounted price). I don't think my $2K flexible spending account will cover that. The pro of this choice would be that I wouldn't have to talk to the IVF Hut people (whom I hate, in case I hadn't mentioned that).
Have I even explained why I'm calling them the IVF Hut? Probably not. I basically feel like they have 3 protocols that they fit everyone in to and they don't treat the IVF-ees like individuals. They don't deserve to be called reproductive endocrinologists.
They just gave me a '#1 with a side of ICSI' and didn't do anything to treat any underlying conditions that may be contributing to my anovulation (like, uhhhh, PCOS!?!?!?). If I go back there, they better at least give me fries this time.
I'm not sure these ramblings even make sense outside my head. You probably wish I hadn't bothered to blog at all with this drivel! Well, maybe I am coming out of hiding and this whole posting thing will be more regular. Or maybe I'll keep being a big non-posting jerk. Only time will tell.

Thank you guys for being there for me with the comments during my pity party. You all rock.


Alex and Jill said...

You make me laugh. I will be praying for you guys and the decisions ahead.

Great to hear from you!


'Murgdan' said...

Hmmm. Well. IVF hut doesn't sound very 'We do it your way'...and although 'the vasectomy doctor' might make you pay up front (and I know how painful that is) his book was pretty freakin' awesome and maybe it's worth it to pay out the ass for good care? If he's he claims to be. If your doctor is the one I remember you telling me....I think.

But again, I know the money pain so who am I to toss around "spend more" advice anyway.

Glad to see you posting again...I was wondering what happened to you.

JamieD said...

Please don't go to the IVF Hut. I can't bear the thought of you dealing with those driviling idiots anymore.

Good to hear from you again . . .

Courtney said...

I am not going to offer any advice cause everyone must chose their own thing! Espeically when money is concerned.

I am so HAPPY you are back!!

Lea said...

Nice to see you again! You have some very interesting choices. I hope you find one that fits your needs. We pay WAY too much money to be treated so poorly.

Anonymous said...

Hey Amy so glad you're back, I started to worry when you got so quiet!
Just my humble opinion - AVOID IVF Hut at all costs. I was also at a "One Size Fits All" Fertility clinic and I landed up wasting 4 years there, I'm finally at a clinic who seem to actually give a sh*t and it has made a HUGE difference in how I feel about treatment.
All the best with whatever you decide.

TRICIA (WTE Sister) said...

I for one am glad you bloged. I mean..our site is not the best anymore after all. But I do wonder how you are and what your up to still.

It's sad that these RE's are such tards and have no common sense anymore as to what the patient might be feeling.

You have been through so much in the past months. I sincerely hope you find your answers soon so you can be at peace.

Katie said...

I wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide, my only thought/advice is make sure you are with a doctor you trust and believe in- your physical well being is just as important as your mental.

Just Another Infertile said...

Welcome back!

My clinic sounds a lot like the IVF Hut, if you don't fit into their mold their is nothing much they can do for you.

Whatever you decide, you deserve the best treatments possible.

Sarah said...

I'm so glad to hear from you! I was wondering how you were.
Also glad to hear you'll be getting back on the horse so to speak.